Early days!!!!!!!!

I am a true student with nobel feelings................of Vagrancy!!!!!
I am the  boy with no objectives or aimless guy who doesn't want to be aimed at a object since childhood to college. So starting from college............................
These are those days which are marking me as a zero in my whole life a big zero which is not suppose to be called idiot with a confused attitude.
O my God! i am too unsure to talk anymore outside me. Since childhood i talk less with others so that they can't find fool inside me which lived in dream of his own. I am with my friends but they didn't know i am hearing them or not. A silly or a definite fool is that person which isn't notice anything in life.The life lived by me is so not interesting but in my college days i only glance on girls and boys seeing each other but doing nothing. How to pass time in college i don't know but the guys who read besides me are so intelligent that they often knows what to do????????????